like my dad says i need to get motivated and rise about it but how do i do that when i feel so depressed that i feel like i’d be doing him and my mom a favor by just swallowing a whole bottle of pills

the thing is, i can’t tell him this because then he gets mad at me and makes it out like i’m being over-dramatic

which only makes me feel more suicidal

what is the point anymore honestly

i’ve disappointed my parents as well as myself and i can’t do anything right anymore, which is saying a lot because i couldn’t do much right in the first place

the hitch here is whether or not i’m too cowardly to go through with these thoughts in my head

i’m still waiting to see how the rest of this season turns out, but dan and david could ruin the rest of the reason entirely and my dad’s reaction to jaime’s hand getting whacked off would still make the whole season worth dealing with.

if i had any shred of musical talent and the ability to market my way into superstardom, my ultimate goal would be to have a band that’s like… the hard femme alternative to rammstein in terms of a stage show. i wouldn’t just go for the studded/glittery top that shoots sparks from the nipples. i’d go for some full-on flamethrower type shit. i don’t know how it would work, but i’m sure someone could make me a bra that shoots massive flames from my tits and then i’d be living the dream.

not here for feminist cries of how we shouldn’t say anything negative about thatcher otherwise it’s sexist.

i get if you’re side-eyeing people who insult thatcher using misogyny.

but it’s not misogynistic or sexist in itself to say that she was a horrible, cruel politician and list the policies, practices, and actions that illustrate that point.

thatcher is not a feminist icon simply because she was a woman in politics, especially not when she did so much to hurt other women.

sorry but ~solidarity~ has its limits.

but like, seriously tho, what the fuck @ cat’s monologue.

it’s bad enough that they’ve cut out cat even being with her father before he died and i don’t get why they have the north/stark army at whothefuckcares in notwheretheyresupposedtobe.

but having cat blame herself for all of this recent shit because she didn’t love jon snow? because she didn’t tell her husband to give jon the family name and make him one of the starks officially?

the fuck is that?

i know cat feels guilt about the state of her family, but that monologue was just out of character and appalling and just the continuation of this desire to run cat’s character into the ground on the show.

they’ve taken so much away from her character, her storyline, her importance. and for what? to enable the writers’ and a lot of fans’ fucked up, misogynistic, and just plain actually wrong interpretations of cat’s chapters and character in the books. to place the blame on anybody but all the men who contributed to the current fucked up state of westeros.

r.i.p. catelyn stark’s characterization and any chance she may have once had to be as powerful on screen as she was on paper.